Diary of a Mad Old Man

“I want to be trampled by those feet.”

Utsugi is obsessed with his daughter-in-law's feet. It sounds creepy. But it reveals how desire persists even when the body is failing.

Buying Satsuko expensive gifts is the only way he can feel alive. Money becomes a substitute for a physical strength he no longer has.

“My life is a constant battle against boredom and pain.”

Old age looks like doctors and medicine on the surface. Underneath it is a wild struggle to stay interested in anything at all.

Satsuko is incredibly manipulative and cold. Yet she is the only person treating him like a man instead of a patient.